Yes, I know. I've not been posting these days. So sorry. I feel as though I'm not myself anymore, I guess that applies to people who knows what had happened to me recently. Eventhough it's not that bad, I feel as though something tragic has hit me. I'm to embarassed to tell people, what's more typed it out here. Many have given advices to me and I appreciate the concern and effort v. much. But, I am too sad, you know? Since I, myself has gotten myself into this, I, myself should settle it myself. I'm trying my v. utmost best to stand back up after the fall.
I just can't make myself believe I did that terrible. I never aimed and expected that Huge number. Never! Why. What made it worst is the next paths I'm able to step on. The one I really wanted to step on, was not there. Even the alternative route too, I could not step into. It's terrible. I just am sad, too sad. Shameful. Disappointed. Angry. Too many emotions running in my mind when I got to know of it. I could feel as though my heart was breaking into many bits and pieces. It's too tough to understand it here. Oh well, nobody would understand how I am really feeling.
Congrats to those who made it. You must be v. proud of yourself. Good for you. All the v. best!
It really hurt to see my "she wants" section here. What was supposed to be slashed, is never gonna be slashed. How now? Easier said, All my non-slashed "she wants" is not happening. Might as well I take it off, right? Sigh
Why do I always fail in whatever I do? Why? It's so unfair.
Maybe I am born to be a failure!
