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Tuesday, September 23, 9/23/2008 11:21:00 pm
The day has finally come, a few more hours to go before the follow-up. Feelings are: anxious, nervous, AFRAID. I don't know what they're gonna do. Take out the needle? Oh my, don't remind me please.
Ya Allah, Kuatkanlah semangat aku. Aku berharap semua akan berlangsung dengan lancar.
So, have to reach the hospital at 9plus am. My heart's beating real fast, clearly showing how scared I am to meet the doctor again. Still, like the previous surgery, I've to go through this with patience, remain strong and listen to the doctor.
Enough about that, now Raya's is in exactly a week now. Totally not excited about it. Even the situation at home is so not welcoming Raya. We've not started on making the kuihs, decorating/cleaning home and such. Hopefully, after the doctor has taken out the tube hanging on my body(which I don't know when he'll do it), I could help out at home.
Ouh, O levels. Trust me people, if you are envious of me having a long break off school, don't be. It's tough, especially when you're not any better in any subjects and requires help from the better ones. Yeah, I'm going through that now. Studying at home is so much different and difficult than studying in school. Having teachers and other better classmates in certain subjects in school, will be alot better for me. I can't study at home. I repeat, I CANNOT STUDY AT HOME. I need help, I really do. My fellow friends, please study with me? Eventhough it's tough for me to leave home, come to my house to study together, maybe? That would be great. Well, I guess not. Pity them having tough days at school, pressure is there. I miss them, I wish I could go through it together with them, wouldn't that be fair?
I hardly can wait to get back to school. I'm so cooped up at home recovering, I can go crazy. Friends who called me up, IM me at msn was suprised I seemed not-sick when communicating with them. I'm like the same old me. Haha! Yeah, dears. My fingers and voice is still functioning well, okay? I miss all of my friends, classmates.
I really have to name out the people who spent their time visiting me at the hospital as I really appreciate their visit and I want all of you to know that.
- Abg Faiz & Wak Aziz, for coming late at night at home and tried ways to cool me down and brought me to hospital
- My family, especially Ibu, who comes EVERY SINGLE DAY. Sorry Ibu & Ayah, if I'm sucha burden and wasting your money(salary) to pay for my hospital bills which costs alot. The EXPENSIVE X-rays which were of no use, especially.
- My relatives, Thank you. Nenek, Wak Mah, Abg Ogy, Cik Kamal's family who came twice. Abg Ogy, buying magazines for me
- Jiemeis, Jiahui & Juepei. You girls had a great time right that day? Thanks for making me laugh
- Peeps in school: Hawa, Siti, Fadzli, Khai, Farhana. Thanks for the gifts:)
- Dominic and Bessie, thank you. I know Dom's so concern about me. What a thoughtful chairman, right?
- Aisha, Yaya, Khat. Thanks for the cuddly care bear. Love it & you girls.
- Diyana twin, coming all the way from Boon Lay. I love you lah. Thanks for the gifts, sweetie. So thoughtful
- Juju, who has already set off to visit me, but I rejected her coming as I just had surgery that day. I'm sorry
- Hawa's family
- Kak Sud and family. Shasha keeps saying, "Bibik pain, Bibik stomach pain" Aww, how adorable.
- I forgot! Arati! She came around evening and sadly, our conversation was kinda blocked by the doctor(?) who came to take my blood and she can't see blood. Sorry, dear
- Ibu's cousins, I don't know their name
Well, that's all I could remember. I'm sorry if I didn't include yours. I forgot, but I didn't expect that many people to be concern about it, you know. I'm serious and I really appreciate all of you coming to visit me.
10 days in hospital, I've seen alot, learnt alot. The nurses were nice, some even take time to talk to me. So caring, even student nurses. I'm sure they'll make good nurses in future.
Woah, this post is long. I guess I'm so nervous, I just wanna type my heart out. I'm worried. About what? My future. How will it be like? Will it be bright like what I've planned and dreamt? I wish. I've alot of plans after the Os, but all that will be determine right at the start of 16 October. I'm so scared if I can't make it. Even if I could make it to poly, I've only got 1 course which I'm really interested in. It's a unique course, but at the same time it's hard to get in it as of the low Cut-off point. My aim is to achieve L1R4 <20!! Pray for me, will you? I need it badly. I have to get at least 5 'O' level credits, for real! But, of course all this requires hardwork itself.
Ahh, enough said. I've been having late nights for the past 2 days. On the internet, IM-ing with Diyana twin, having fun playing MSN games and drawing on Msn last night. I sure had fun. Well, actually I'm waiting for her to online, I didn't tell her I'm waiting for her. Afraid she thinks I'm annoying or disturbing her. Heh. Hopefully she does go online, if she does not then it's fine. I'll give her a few minutes.
I'm bored, that's the reason I'm typing this crap without stop. I let my brains and fingers do the job. Hahah! Alright, I'll stop, okay okay. You people might doze off if I type any longer. Wait, that is if anyone do read up my posts. Goodnight, readers and pray for me that tomorrow will go smoothly, alright? Thank you. I love you all
Salam sayang,
ymB aanaeeD ♥
